everything else is empty

i don know y?? i chose this title???..ermm..how i wont translate dis title....mayb dis title about ma life n ma self..
i fell evrything very O ,juz..O ....i know mayb this a reply from allah of the past mistakes 4 me..i Redha if this has been written 4 me...i know not evrthing is beuty...dis is reality in life...there used 2 be someone very loves me.........but I is not feasible 4 her .. I know she a gurlz who truly understand ..until I decided to give up this love of transportation, she also is asked of me ... I'm with Redha let it applies...
I do not blame anybody ... right now I put on one's heart ... i don care if her not open da heart ... I Redha if her still has not, and accept me ... mayb I 2 hope n I helped her lost experienced pain .... I do not know wat I want actually ..mayb..arghh...y??? dis dificult... I juz tried 2 comfort her ... I do not want her in sorrow ... I don no mayb I'm not exactly in her time ... I had promised in ma self b 4 dis .... I'm not going 2 find another even though her did not choose and open the door of her heart 4 me ... I Redha ..... I'll wait if her opened  heart ... even though how long will I wait .. I just want to see her in happy;; may loose her read this post I will make her very hate me ... I Redha ... even though her hated me ...its up 2 u...


ya allah  ... in fact you are more aware of what is implied ... ya allah yes I know I did a lot of sins to you ya allah ... I'm ashamed of you .. but you I complain yes god ... I am not worthy to appeal to the you ya allah, but you also I beg ya allah ..yes i generous indeed .. the mighty god  you are open to loving hearts ... ya allah ... indeed I very much hope in you .. ya allah ...ya allah .. I beg of you .. eassy me and her to live a life full of transition ... ya allah ... I'm just a lowly servant who is weak again .... you guard my feelings for her O eternal gods ... ya allah you protecs dis feelings so as not to exceed ma love 4 u ya allah ...ya rabbal alamin....
              
       I apologize 4 everything else if I have hurt u ...i apologize 4 da last time.....n 4 all....